Hello God? Sorry About That

I'm going to admit something here I would never admit to anyone else.  Well ok one other person.  I think I'm going mad.  And now that I've typed it.  It doesn't seem to make me feel any better.

Why do I think I'm going mad?  Because for weeks now I have woken up in the middle of the night to whispers.  This is how it started out.....

Me:  Startled and waking up.  "Huh?"

Whisper:  "Blog"

Me:  "Who is that?  What did you say?"

And then my head falls back down and I go back to sleep.  It started about a week before I had my surgery and I thought it was just nerves.  If I'm extremely stressed I tend to get some pretty freaky dreams, so I just chalked it up to nerves....and freaky dreams.

Then since I've been recovering, this is what happens....what I remember anyway.....

Me:  "Huh?"

Whisper:  "Make a blog."

Me:  "What?  I do blog."

Whisper:  "Make a blog."

Me:  "Stupid.  I have a blog."

Whisper:  "Make a blog."

Me:  "Blog blog blog.  I don't know what that means?"

And then I wake up.  Sometimes I am in a full sweat and other times I just fall back to sleep.  But every single night I wake up like this.  Sometimes the whispers are longer, sometimes it's just a couple of whispers.  But it's right in my head and scares the bejeebers out of me.

How completely insane is this?  Straight jacket anyone?  I feel like I'm losing my mind.  At first I thought it was from all the great Tylenol 3's in me, but I haven't taken any Tylenol 3's in a couple of weeks now.  Side affects still from the anesthesia?  Then I thought maybe I was eating too late into the night.  Whatever.  I'm bored out of my mind and the one thing I can do without hurting is eat.  But I stopped that.  I'm not stressed, I'm eating better, I get plenty of rest.  What.  The.  Heck.  Is.  Up.  With.  This??

And as embarrassed as I've been about this, I wrote to a friend about it.  She seems to think it's Gods way of talking to me.  Good grief.  About a blog??  Not likely.  But thanks.

Then I couldn't help thinking about what she wrote.  And I wondered if it was in-fact God.  If he took offence to me calling him stupid.

Comments

[Penney]

That is weird Joy. Sorry i have no answers for you. How many times has this happened to you??? That is just so curious.

[Jeanne]

Hi Joy. No. You. Aren't. Going. Mad. Do you feel better now?? Seriously, I think it could be the Tylenol 3 after effects. I have taken T3 in the past...after surgery and such. The dreams I have had on that stuff are well.....VIVID! Mind Blowing DRAMA!! Or....maybe you should just BLOG more!! You've had alot of funky stuff going on with your surgery and all, don't worry about it...it will pass. Your blog ROCKS!!

[Radioactive Jam]

The epistle of Saint Blog to the internets?

[Debbie]

Maybe it's a Field of Dreams thing. Build the blog and someone will come. There might be some new and different blog you're supposed to be writing. Hmmm. Just a thought. ;)

[Sirdar]

Don't know about this one. The mind becomes quite imaginative when sleeping. Perhaps it is because you are a blogaholic and your mind is just reinforcing that thought.